Some people may go through their entire life wondering what there purpose is in life because they do not feel fulfilled. I was talking to a client about this. Every year they go through this thought process and wonder what their purpose is. They look back and see mistakes and accomplishments, but never feel like they are doing what they were put on this earth to do. I feel people feel this way a lot because we are not happy with where our lives are or what we have accomplished so far. When we only worry about others and never take care of ourselves a lot of things happen. We tend to forget who we are, what we have wanted to do, get angry because there is not enough time in the day to get everything done and we never spend an adequate amount of time on ourselves. We get to a ripe old age and wonder what we were suppose to do. We are suppose to discover and create who WE are to be. To be happy and enjoy and live life to the fullest. We were given a life to LIVE it up, not to Give it up.

The reason why we feel it is not fulfilled is because we didn't fulfill our lives for ourselves first. When we do for ourselves it is not being selfish it is taking care of your own needs and life and then in turn when the time is right, we can HELP take care of others in an harmonious way. We have control of our own lives to create it in a way that we want. We are our own worst enemy. WE allowed things and people into our lives that were not to our highest good but we can also change that. Our life plan and purpose does not have to be this big earth shattering plan, it just has to make you happy and those you chose around you. SOOO what are you going to do with the rest of your life? Are you going to live it or just exist in it? Are you going to LIVE it up or GIVE it up?

I am sorry I have been MIA but there were changes placed in my life and whether or not I was ready to face them, BOOM..... they were put there. Now I see it was to my highest good. There may be things that are placed into your life that might not present all the facts but enough to make you wonder and doubt,is this where I should be.  I recently moved to Florida for what I thought at the time was for my highest good. Almost immediately I was shown that it was NOT to my highest good but I am not a quitter, so I stuck it out. I tried to do everything I could to make it work. More and more things would happen to make me realize that this was not to my highest good. After only 10 months things were presented to me that might not have been the full facts but enough to peek my attention and realize what I need to do. Sooooo I am now back in COLORADO. I am so happy but this has been bitter sweet.  We are all human and we make mistakes but as long as we learn from them that is what matters. ​Everyday is a life lesson and we have to be aware of what i is trying to tell us. It may take me a little while but my spirits guides will not stop until I get the message. I am so thankful for them.They are a team I could never live without. So to let you all know I AM OFFICIALLY BACK IN COLORADO. All my Colorado clients and friends lets do this. I am still doing what I do best. I am still running and operating Soul To Soul which is my passion.  Thank you all for baring with me through this transition. I love you all and you mean the world to me. 

There comes a time in your life where you have taken care of everybody and everybody's everything. You start to wonder what your purpose is or was here on earth. You know it was to do more then to help others. The gets to be a time where you have taken care of everything and you have maybe some spare time on your hands and you may start to wonder " what is my purpose?" The great thing about this is it is never to late to do ANYTHING you want to do. What is your purpose in life? It is for you to be happy and to be the best you that you can be. When you are truly happy you will feel fulfilled. No one can tell you what that is. You have to make that decision. It may take you months or years. You may try many things and still not know but that great part about it is that you are finally exploring yourself and your life and what is to your highest good. Never let anyone stand in the way of your happiness because after all this is YOUR life. 

When the season come we enjoy the many changes of all the beauty around us. Like the temperatures, grass, trees, flowers and the energy of everything including people. in Colorado our state tree is the Aspen. There would be people coming from all over the world to see all the beauty it has to offer in the fall when the leaves are changing. It is a sight to behold. You see the many changes of that tree throughout the year. In the fall it is at its most beautiful state and then winter comes and all the leaves fall off. They look like they are dead in the winter. Come spring with lots of sunshine, rain, warmth and love from mother nature the tree start to get leaves and thrive again and become beautiful.

Thats how our own lives may be sometimes. We may be feeling like we are no longer thriving (leafless) and at times we may feel dead inside or that there is no way of coming back to life. To thrive we need that nurturing just like all things. Without that attention and nurturing we feel like we are not at our fullest. We must first get that nurturing from ourselves. We deserve our own love and attention like we give to others. We are worthy of our own love.

 This is a continuation of my Suicide Blog. This is for awareness. It breaks my heart to see and hear the misunderstanding of suicide. 

Warning Signs of Suicide
Symptoms and Danger 
These signs may mean someone is at risk for suicide. Risk is greater if a behavior is new or has increased and if it seems related to a painful event, loss or change.

• Talking about wanting to die or to kill oneself.
• Looking for a way to kill oneself, such as searching online or buying a gun.
• Talking about feeling hopeless or having no reason to live.
• Talking about feeling trapped or in unbearable pain.
• Talking about being a burden to others.
• Increasing the use of alcohol or drugs.
• Acting anxious or agitated; behaving recklessly.
• Sleeping too little or too much.
• Withdrawn or feeling isolated.
• Showing rage or talking about seeking revenge.
• Displaying extreme mood swings.
• Preoccupation with death.
• Suddenly happier, calmer.
• Loss of interest in things one cares about.
• Visiting or calling people to say goodbye.
• Making arrangements; setting one's affairs in order.
• Giving things away, such as prized possessions.

A suicidal person urgently needs to see a doctor or mental health professional.
In an emergency, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
In my opinion we should post this phone number on the refrigerator so that everyone has access to it. I know as parents we want our children to come to us and talk to us so we can help them.  A lot of kids do not want to talk to their parents because they feel like they will not understand or think that they are making a mountain out of a mole hill. Parents often disregard a kids feelings. Kids often have issues with the parents as well and they are the last people they would then want to talk to.

Back in the day the bullying would just be in school and when the kids left for the day then they feel like they can at least escape the person until the next day but the feelings and emotions of what was done to them last forever. NOW there is bulling via text, phone, social media and so on. Will this ever end? People need to know and teach their kids that every life and person is of value. It starts at home. Watch what you say about people and how you treat people. Your kids are learning from you as well. You can not expect your kids to be nice and treat others with respect if you don't do it.  

It breaks my heart when I communicate with the souls of children who have commit suicide. They tell me that they were just trying to get attention, trying to see if anyone loves  them, or they are so depressed that they think this is a way to escape FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME. Many of them thought they were not close enough in their suicide modality that it would kill them. Many think they can come back or after taken to the hospital they will be brought back to life. 

They think their life is so bad (and to them it is) that they do not want to live anymore. They are usually depressed for a while. They do not know how to handle what they can no longer handle in life. Please do not look at your child and think that they have no idea what life is really like because they are just kids and that they do not have the stress of an adult. Each person has a tolerance level and as kids they are at their limit of what they can and can't deal with. Maybe start a dialog with your children about your own feelings and emotions and talk about how you want to handle it. 

Adults also get to their breaking points. They know more of what they are doing. They get to a point that they do not want to live anymore for many reasons. Some are because they have been diagnosed with something that is going to take their life and they do not want to go out that way. They realized that they are not a good person and in their mind they don't want to harm anyone in their life anymore plus many more reasons.  I know this is going to be hard to accept and swallow but if an adult you know have commit suicide, first think of them and not yourself.  We instantly say " how could they do this to us" or " they must not care about their family" or "did they think about what this was going to do to the rest of the family". We have to think about what got them to that point. Sometimes we may never know that. But, understand and forgive them.  Most of the adult souls I talked to that have commit suicide knew what they were doing. They have their own very good reasons of why and usually they are not selfish reasons. 

Whether someone commits suicide or dies of natural causes, they do "visit" us at times to console us, show us love and to just snoop in on us. Try to get "out of your head" and allow yourself to feel that they are here with us.

If you are thinking about suicide please take time and look at everything in your life. Evaluate whether or not the things you are worrying about is worth your time. Change your life in ways that is going to make YOU happy because it is your life. You can change it. DO not except what is not to our highest good. 

I would like to offer to children only, a scheduled time to talk to me if they would like. Maybe if they know how these kids feel during and after they commit suicide. Maybe it will help and make them rethink. 

sending love, energy and healing to all. 
Love and Energy
Lynn Troop 
owner of
Soul to Soul
www.thespiritscommunicatewith.me
https://www.facebook.com/im2busynow

.Her name is Maxine Bartkovich. While driving, the fatal crash occurred around 5 p.m. on westbound I-4 near World Drive. Her vehicle was rear-ended by a Ford pickup. Her Toyota Corolla was then pushed into another Ford truck, which struck a Honda, according to troopers.

She was just 21 and had her entire life ahead of her with many plans already in the works. She was loved by all including my nephew Brian Troop. They just started a beautiful relationship together in December. The beauty of a new love with the excitement of their future together and all the dreams that come with it. 

I was just in Orlando last weekend and hoped to meet up with them but it didn't work out. I think now that was because they needed to spend as much time together as they could before this tragedy. I was sad we couldn't meet but now even more sad that I didn't have the opportunity to meet this beautiful young lady. But, I understand why the meetup couldn't happen and thankful for the time that the 2 of them had together. 

She was a beautiful girl with so much ahead of her. She was three months from graduating with a degree in hospitality management at UCF. She worked hard, putting herself through college. She worked two jobs, sometimes three jobs just to get through college. She was a real go-getter. Her dream life was truly about to begin but in an unexpected blink of an eye, it was taken away from her. 

I am writing this as a WAKEUP call to us all. Live everyday as full as you can because you never know what the next minute is going to bring. Don't put off until tomorrow, next month or next year. We can all be taken in a blink of an eye.

They do not know what the cause of the accident was but PLEASE keep your distractions to a minimum. Please do not text, google internet, read emails, search your playlists and so on. PLEASE BE AWARE. Life is precious, yours and others.

Maxine you are resting in peace. The heavens needed a beautiful soul with a beautiful smile. They now have the most perfect hospitality director there so when everyone goes to heaven they are greeted with that beautiful smile and blessed with your heart and soul and you can sooth and calm other souls upon arrival. Continue your dreams in heaven. You are deeply loved and truly missed. 

I have mad a promise to myself this year to be more present in my life and to be more aware of my surroundings. You see my life mostly consisted of working (which I love) a ton, starting a new life (which I love), expanding on my career and doing things for others. I never had balance in any of this. This year it changes. I am going to balance things out and take the time to be present in my life. What I mean by that is to not be on automatic pilot anymore or in a rush to do the next thing and only choose to do things if they are to my highest good. I am a great mentor but sometimes I need to stop and listen to my own advise. One of the things I say to my clients is " this is your life, if it is not the way you want it, shame on you". We have total control of our lives and if it is not the way we want it then we should change it. It is never too late for change. We should never feel like it is too much work for us to change our lives either because then we are telling ourselves that we are not worth our own effort and time.
    
​ Soooo anyway with this all being said, the other day I was at Walmart (my favorite place... NOT) heading towards my car, I was enjoying the beautiful day and noticed there was a man looking at my car magnets. I have magnets for Soul To Soul on my car. He walked away slowly and headed towards his car that was near mine. As I started to approach my car he stopped and looked at me and then continued to walk to his car. The entire time he kept looking at me as if he wanted to say something. When I got to my car I noticed his mother was there in spirit. She said to me "do it". I said "do what"? She said "go talk to him". This whole time he is still just sitting in his car. I got in my car and I said to her "ok if I go over there what do you want me to say?". I do not like to just walk up to people and do an impromptu. So she started to talk to me and I notice that we are both in our cars now looking at each other. When things line up I know that they are meant to happen.

I got out of my car and went over to his. I stood about 3 feet away and asked if I could talk to him. He said yes and got out. He started to tear up before I even said anything. lol I have that effect on people. I said I noticed that you noticed the magnets on my car so I guess you know what I do. He said yes with more tears coming to his eyes. I told him your mother is here and she is sorry she left before your wedding but wanted you to know she was there and you looked so happy and handsome. She said that she was in the hospital with you when you went in because of cancer. Then his wife came in from spirit. I told him that his wife is here with us as well. I told him that she said "I am still going to keep our promise" and he just collapsed crying. I also told him that she said "do you remember Lily of the Valley?". He started to laugh. He told me that she pointed out once to him these little white flowers that she liked. One day he wanted to buy her flowers but could not remember what they looked like or what they were called. He went to a florist and picked Lily of the Valley and had the lady wrap them for him. He brought them home and she looked at them in a strange manor. He said "is there something wrong?". She said "were there to be flowers in there?". He said they are flowers. So that was always something special to them.  He said to me " up until right now, I never believed in this stuff but deep down wanted it to be possible. Thank you for sharing your amazing gift."

As the new year starts we take time to look back on the past year or years. Whether it's relationships, jobs, careers, family, life and how we live it. What you need to understand is nothing has to stay the same if you are not happy or satisfied. Remember this is YOUR life. Make it the way you want for you and your highest good. Other people do not have to like the changes or desires that you seek but that is fine because it is not their life. Many people tend to respond to peoples different desires with prejudicial reactions. How can someone else know what is best for you? Most people don't even know what is good for themselves. They give you advise based on their fears, wants, needs and desires and rarely is the advise given to you for your happiness or enjoyment.
​ Some people think they are too old to make changes... I disagree! If you are still living then there is time to do what excites you for you to LIVE your life. If you have wanted to finish school, change jobs, move or even release an unhealthy relationship, this is the time to do it. You have hidden strength within that you have to tap into to pick yourself up and get going. So this is a new yew.... is it time for a new year? If you are happy with who you are then celebrate and be the best you that you can be. Smile and share your loveliness with others and make them wonder and maybe smile just because you did. We were put on this earth to live and be the best we can be........... Happy New Year